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Hebrews 6:13-120 (NASB)

“For when God made the promise to Abraham, since He could swear by no one greater, He swore by Himself, saying, “I WILL SURELY BLESS YOU AND I WILL SURELY MULTIPLY YOU.” And so, having patiently waited, he obtained the promise. For men swear by one greater than themselves, and with them an oath given as confirmation is an end of every dispute. In the same way God, desiring even more to show to their heirs of the promise the unchangeableness of His purpose, interposed with an oath, so that by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have taken refuge would have strong encouragement to take hold of the hope set before us.

This hope we have as anchor of the soul, a hope both sure and steadfast and one which enters within the veil, where Jesus has entered as a forerunner for us, having become a priest forever according to the order of Melchizedek”

Lord, I pray that whoever reads this would be blessed. I pray that all of the confusion would be silenced now in Jesus name. I pray that all of the answers their looking for concerning their soul, purpose, and relationship with You would be satisfied now in the name of Jesus. Amen.

I remember growing up, and even now, I struggled with my salvation. I struggled with the idea of God and His existence. Because of events that happened in my life, relationships, and pure skepticism, I rebelled heavy. I grew up in church but I wanted to know God for myself so I threw the whole God-thing away until I knew for myself what I wanted to believe, not mom or dad or grandma but ME. In my search, I declared myself as an agnostic to my friends because I didn’t know for sure. They would always say, “Carly, if you don’t believe in God, you’re going to go to Hell. You don’t want that do you?” Of course, the answer to that question was no but as bad as the thought of eternal damnation was, it wasn’t enough to convince me that God existed. At this point in my life, I had two beliefs: everybody’s wrong or everybody’s right. I believed that either A – when we die, there’s nothing. It’s just an end game, or a black screen. Or B – everybody’s god is real and we’ll all live in harmony together, except for those who believed in nothing and were bad. Some people reading this now might believe the beliefs I had sound like pretty good theologies. Just keep reading.

In my struggle, my mind was constantly bombarded with typical existential questions, “Why am I here? Why was I created? Where has everyone I love gone? Where will I go? Why do bad things happen to good people? Why is there disease? Why do the rich get richer and the poor get poorer? Why is there racism and hatred? Why?” These questions ignited fear and anxiety within me and troubled my soul (the one I didn’t believe in at the time). I began to have panic attacks because of these unanswered questions. I knew that I needed to know but truthfully, looking back now, I really didn’t make an effort to find these answers. I looked and listened and researched and got scared and stopped searching but truthfully…I never found what I was looking for.

The truth is: I didn’t find God, God found me. I didn’t choose God, God chose me.

Mind you, I’d spent the first parts of my life learning about this “Jesus” person, going to church, praying to whatever or whoever is listening, and then running away from God until one day it all made sense. *This is a supernatural experience but I’ll try my best to convey it a natural way. Here’s what happened to me: When God’s Spirit connected with my spirit (the one that I didn’t believe in), I became alive. The reason I couldn’t understand who God was or the attributes about Him or the life He designed for me was because I was spiritually dead. Stay with me here – my body was alive, my mind was alive, but spiritually it was as if I didn’t exist.

Now the spirit is not just a mix of emotions, or chemicals, that you can search on Google to find out what it is and how it works. It takes something spiritual to access something spiritual. The only way that the spiritual part of you can be enabled is by faith because that’s how God operates. He’s not an equation that you can simply compute and get right or an institution you have to persuade to gain access to. He is Spirit (Jn 4:24). The only way you can access God is BY spirit. The only way God can access YOU is by Spirit. Therefore, the only way you have access to each other is by F A I T H.

And what is faith? Faith is CONFIDENCE in what you hope for and assurance about what you do NOT see. (Heb.11:1)

Many of us hope that God exists in our hearts (whether you care to admit or not) because I believe we all hope for God or Godly attributes. We HOPE to see our loved ones again. We HOPE we don’t have to bear the consequences of our actions. We HOPE that Hell isn’t real. We HOPE to have a successful life. We HOPE for peace. We HOPE for love. We hope, we hope, we hope…

I believe hope is instilled into all of us because God says He’s given us ALL a measure of faith (Rom. 12:3). Now hope is the catalyst that faith operates out of. Faith is the fuel for spiritual transactions between us and God, from salvation to just our everyday relationship with Him. This is how He designed us to interact with Him. I believe everyone has a measure of faith, either in themselves, someone else, or God perhaps, but it’s there. But it’s up to US to determine where we submit our hope and place our faith. Will we submit hope and faith to temporary things, such as people, money, objects, or success? Will we submit hope and faith to ourselves and take life’s burden of sin and hardship upon our human capabilities? Will we submit our hope and faith in other gods that are unreachable and hollow and demand work-based approaches to freedom, peace, love, and salvation?

Or will we submit hope and faith to the One God that we don’t have to find? The One God that find us, love us, protects us, and frees us.

The subject of this piece isn’t aimed at your salvation and where you stand, it’s aimed at Christ. This was written to silence thoughts and fears that I know have kept all of us up at night. I struggled, and even now struggle, with where to submit my hope and faith. I spent years placing it places that profited me nothing. I spent years placing it the hands of gods that didn’t even love me let alone die for me. This truth is what made my spirit come alive. Truth that there is a living God that loves me and chose me. Truth that there is a God who’s never changing (Heb.13:8). Truth that there is God who promises to never leave me and that we’ll physically be together again. I always hoped for immortality but I never believed it was possible until a man named Jesus.

So, I don’t know what you’re looking for here. I don’t know why you stopped by. I don’t what you’re placing your hope and faith into. But both lie inside of you, and I pray that you place them both into the hands of the One God that will NEVER stop chasing you or loving you. Whether it’s hope and faith for salvation, peace, healing, or whatever it is that you need, God’s got it. His name is Jesus.

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