This morning I took my last final for the semester (HALLELUJAH! One step closer to graduation) but it was for my hardest class….statistics. I gave it my all this semester. Did I procrastinate? Yes. Did I choose sleep over studying some weekends? Yes. But that was MY best. It was all I could do without nearly killing myself mentally and emotionally over this class. I’m super type A sometimes and I beat myself up A LOT because I try to be the best but this class specifically taught me that I don’t need to be THE best, I just need to be MY best (and pass this class😂)
This class didn’t just take hard work alone. No, I needed a supernatural breakthrough to pass. Some think God doesn’t care about areas like school and success but He does. He makes ALL things work together for your good and His glory. Period. So there were some nights I spent studying and praying and studying and praying. Sometimes I would get As and other times I would get Fs but the Lord was still good and the same. He always revealed areas I needed to work on. He provided me with the resources and teachers I needed to learn from until I had my “aha!” moment.
But there were times, I’m ashamed to say, that I had those pitiful and powerless prayers. I didn’t realize it until just today. I gave it my all on the final exam but still felt discouraged about my score. I prayed, “Lord, if it’s your will…” how many of you have prayed that prayer? I stopped myself in the middle of it and said “wait a minute! Why WOULDNT it be in His will for me to pass? Even if I don’t pass, why WOULDNT it be in His will for me to have a successful future?” His plans are to PROSPER us and not to harm us. He has good thoughts of us and not evil. Immediately, this scripture came to my heart:
“Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!”
Matthew 7:9-11 NIV
I forgot the God I serve! I don’t have a works based God; I don’t have to do any more or less for Him to love and bless me. Hypothetically, I could remain the same for the rest of my life and God still wouldn’t change His love for me. I changed from pleading God to praising Him! I started thanking Him for the outcome of this test! I thanked Him for what I DID learn this semester! I thanked Him that pass or fail my future is predestined and BLESSED by Him because I’m His child and He LOVES ME.
What about you? How can you change your prayer life to praise today?