“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
Matthew 6:33-34 NIV
So it’s payday again and honestly things have been TIGHT financially. Lately I felt like I can’t even enjoy the fruits of my labor because everybody else gets to take a bite. Bills and debt are nibbling left at right and I end up left with crumbs every time. God has been so faithful and good though! I’ve never starved, always had a roof over my head, my car has never been hauled down the street, bills are always on time…HE IS GOOD.
But the weight I’ve felt lately has been almost unbearable. I could barely sleep some nights because I had a million and one thoughts about my current situation and my future. It was fear. I’ve had so much anxiety in this season my health has literally been deteriorating. Some days I can’t even go to work, which caused more anxiety cause I need my job to pay these bills! But no matter what tricks the enemy throws at me I know that I don’t wrestle flesh and blood. My God promised to supply ALL my needs and that’s exactly what He’s done! I’ve been young(er) and now I’m old(er) and I’ve YET to see the righteous forsaken.
So here we are at payday, I’m feeling anxious. I’m thinking, “Lord, you know my situation…I could REALLY use that 10% I give you every month.” BUT I promised Him years ago that if He would remain faithful to keeping my needs met then I would remain faithful to giving.
He posed a question, “what else would you do with that money?” Immediately, I thought about going out to eat! I thought about getting my nails done, I thought about buying myself some more shoes, after all, I deserve it! It’s been a hard season right?
But how much more could God do? He could bless more people with my portion than I ever could. He could feed more people than I could. He could do much more because He IS more! I mean, it’s His money anyways. He gave me life and I choose to give it back to Him.
So, I say all this to say, do NOT be anxious about anything in your life, especially money. If you belong to Him then EVERYTHING in your life belongs to Him. Stay faithful because He is faithful. Don’t lose hope! Rest in His promises, all of them!