“And in this I give advice: It is to your advantage not only to be doing what you began and were desiring to do a year ago; but now you also must complete the doing of it; that as there was readiness to desire it, so there also may be a completion out of what you have. For if there is first a willing mind, it is accepted according to what one has, and not according to what he does not have.”
2 Corinthians 8:1-12
Over a year ago, the Lord put it in my heart to begin this blog to share the testimony of His goodness in my life to others. It was to encourage, inspire, and create a space where people can witness the joys, aches, and pains of a follower of Christ. A place where we could be really real…
I’ve been blessed to be able to witness, speak to, and have conversations with people of various races, ages, religious backgrounds and affiliations, and one thing that I’ve found is that most people have never encountered a real follower of Christ. That’s right. They tell me about Christian culture, the songs and suits, the “Hallelujah, Amen” language; the no tattoos or bikini tops wearing, “women shouldn’t speak in church” thinking, half-truth, no context believing…Christians. Their stories break my heart. I used to quickly utter the words, “That’s not true” until realizing that maybe it is. Maybe that has been the gospel that Christians have spread all along.
So, I asked the Lord, “What is true?” and went searching for the answers. The truth is: of all the people I’ve had conversations with, most, if not all, had the earnest desire to know God or want Him involved in their life but they were so turned off by church culture (religion) that they stayed away altogether. Their feelings were usually “I want Him but I don’t want all of that” or “I believe there is a god but I’m not sure about those rules.”
When we teach rules over relationship, we impart religion. We impart Christianity for the sake of tradition. We promote uniformity and not unity among people of all types.
The conversations I had with these people, unbelievers, taught me more than I would have ever learned in a brick building. It was real. Their concerns left me at a cliffhanger and I couldn’t go on until I went back to the beginning. I had to go back home, back to my quiet place, back to the Word, back to the books I love, back to worship, back to dance, back to art – back to my Father. I had to go back to the beginning and recognize and understand why I was chosen. I questioned what brought me here in my relationship with Christ and why do I still believe. What keeps me going?
Cliffhangers. Cliffhangers are people that are searching, longing for the truth beyond the masks of life. They are people that don’t just want to hear about God or be persuaded but rather that desire Him for real. The authentic God. The invisible God that has been made evident to all mankind.
I often get discouraged when I think of my blog posts. Sometimes I think they’re not good enough, other times I think I could do more (I definitely could do more). But the truth is, I’m doing exactly what God wants me to do when He wants me to and that is enough. The truth is so long as the desire still burns, God will meet me there and produce what is meant to come out at the appointed time. We are living in unprecedented times but one thing we know is that we were instructed that these times would come. Some are so focused on what happens next that they forget what’s supposed to happen now.
What about you?
Where were you a year ago, or even a few months ago?
What visions, dreams, and plans did you have on your heart that are now at a halt?
What drove you to those things back then?
Where is your drive?
I’ll be the first to tell you that sometimes, most times, our plans don’t look like what we think they ought to. I’m sure as God’s children we don’t look like what we ought to all of the time…but He loves us anyway. He chooses us anyway. It’s in knowing that no matter where I go I can never go too far from Him
You are not too far. Pick up where you left off and so long as you have the desire to fulfill what was placed inside of you, it will be acceptable to Him and to others.